So...i still have a crush on some girl. Same girl from that dream. i thought that by now it would be gone...but now its kinda getting stronger and i dont know how to express it!
so i'll just sing about it. -_-
Friday, January 16, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Birthday Party/Bible conference meeting.
last night...my birthday party was crazy!!! it started at around 2 cuz alot of ppl came early, but i had to leave to go to a bible conference meeting in loma linda [haha i went to my cousins and friends and was like, "well...hope you guys have fun..."] yeah.
my friend elizabeth's mom took her and i to loma linda. when we got there the other schools that are part of the bible conference were there. we later met up with a few of other ppl from our school so we kinda stuck with each other...one of the coolest part though was seeing two ppl that i had met from a mexico mission trip a couple of years ago: sarah and ashlee. and also pastor jason! haha. eventually elissa and friends came and then there was a short worship in the lla chapel.
then each uh..."Category" of group...ppl...were called away into separate meetings. group leaders, praise band auditions, and drama team. [oh! and i also saw someone from my old school (clarissa)] eventually everyone was gone and i was just sitting by myself in the chapel...cuz i was a tech guy...and they didnt call the tech guys to do anything. so i started walking around and i met this redlands person who was also a tech guy. he didnt know where he was supposed to go either. so we kinda just walked for a while until we found someone who [i guess] was somewhat partly in charge...? the redlands guy [yeah i forgot his name...something with two letters. aj? jt? rd? lt? ...he was asian] asked the person who [i guess] was somewhat-partly-in charge where the tech guys are supposed to meet.
"well today we don't really have anything for the tech crew." -_-
so i went to join the group leaders' meeting cuz thats where elizabeth, elissa and friends, and ashlee were. the meeting was pretty cool. but me and elizabeth had to leave early for my party...so as we were leaving...i went to hug elissa to say goodbye..and she and her big mouth! "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!" and then ashlee "its his birthday?! hey everyone! its daniel's birthday! lets sing to him!!!" so the whole group of leader's sang...haha.
the party!
it was pretty crazy. we had over a hundred ppl at our house...I DIDNT KNOW HALF OF THE PPL THERE! it was mostly family...but thank goodness that some of my friends showed up. it was pretty cool. music, dancing, food, video games upstairs, kareoke, and games. there was also a slideshow presentation with a bunch of my pictures of me growing up...my mom chose the pictures...my cousins and sister chose the music. then i guess me and a few of my friends got kinda bored...so we recorded a few songs in the dark..in my room...screamo style. haha. not saying that i'm really really into that kind of music though. my aunt made my caked! which looked like a guitar! i still have it in my freezer! i dont want to eat it...not that i think it'll taste bad...its that it looks sooo coooool! there was also a wall with a giant poster with pictures of me on it where ppl would sign "happy birthday" and stuff.
later elissa and friends came! woooo! haha and my family got them to dance! and quite a few of my cousins thought that elissa was my girlfriend...no. noooo. fricken joy...haha.
so yeah...after that night i was dead. so i just went to sleep. and this morning when i woke up...i was sore!
my friend elizabeth's mom took her and i to loma linda. when we got there the other schools that are part of the bible conference were there. we later met up with a few of other ppl from our school so we kinda stuck with each other...one of the coolest part though was seeing two ppl that i had met from a mexico mission trip a couple of years ago: sarah and ashlee. and also pastor jason! haha. eventually elissa and friends came and then there was a short worship in the lla chapel.
then each uh..."Category" of group...ppl...were called away into separate meetings. group leaders, praise band auditions, and drama team. [oh! and i also saw someone from my old school (clarissa)] eventually everyone was gone and i was just sitting by myself in the chapel...cuz i was a tech guy...and they didnt call the tech guys to do anything. so i started walking around and i met this redlands person who was also a tech guy. he didnt know where he was supposed to go either. so we kinda just walked for a while until we found someone who [i guess] was somewhat partly in charge...? the redlands guy [yeah i forgot his name...something with two letters. aj? jt? rd? lt? ...he was asian] asked the person who [i guess] was somewhat-partly-in charge where the tech guys are supposed to meet.
"well today we don't really have anything for the tech crew." -_-
so i went to join the group leaders' meeting cuz thats where elizabeth, elissa and friends, and ashlee were. the meeting was pretty cool. but me and elizabeth had to leave early for my party...so as we were leaving...i went to hug elissa to say goodbye..and she and her big mouth! "HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!" and then ashlee "its his birthday?! hey everyone! its daniel's birthday! lets sing to him!!!" so the whole group of leader's sang...haha.
the party!
it was pretty crazy. we had over a hundred ppl at our house...I DIDNT KNOW HALF OF THE PPL THERE! it was mostly family...but thank goodness that some of my friends showed up. it was pretty cool. music, dancing, food, video games upstairs, kareoke, and games. there was also a slideshow presentation with a bunch of my pictures of me growing up...my mom chose the pictures...my cousins and sister chose the music. then i guess me and a few of my friends got kinda bored...so we recorded a few songs in the dark..in my room...screamo style. haha. not saying that i'm really really into that kind of music though. my aunt made my caked! which looked like a guitar! i still have it in my freezer! i dont want to eat it...not that i think it'll taste bad...its that it looks sooo coooool! there was also a wall with a giant poster with pictures of me on it where ppl would sign "happy birthday" and stuff.
later elissa and friends came! woooo! haha and my family got them to dance! and quite a few of my cousins thought that elissa was my girlfriend...no. noooo. fricken joy...haha.
so yeah...after that night i was dead. so i just went to sleep. and this morning when i woke up...i was sore!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Oh no!
So for quite a while now I have been trying to see if I should take more interest in someone that I know [i'm so lame...]. I would talk with her, try to make dumb jokes to her, chat with her [lol], leave her some comments every now and then...and yeah! But I don't like...overflow her with all that talking and stuff. I don't because if I do...I'm afraid that she'll probably get annoyed of me and I'll just be some daily conversation or something.
Eventually I decided that she'll probably never take any kind of interest in me haha. So I stopped. I still talk to her every now and then...but...yeah.
But then on the night of January 4 2008...well...technically it was morning already...on the morning of January 5 2008 at 1am...I had that dream. That dream that inspired me to write that poem from my music myspace (the one in the first blog i posted). It was one of the best dreams i had had in a looooooooong time. My previous ones the nights before have all been nightmares...but thats for a different blog.
by the way come check out my music at my
youtube and my music myspace
and every now and then i'll broadcast live on blogtv
So yeah! Because of that dream...I guess I have a crush on that girl that I was talking about before...and I've never felt more dooooomed in my entire life.
Eventually I decided that she'll probably never take any kind of interest in me haha. So I stopped. I still talk to her every now and then...but...yeah.
But then on the night of January 4 2008...well...technically it was morning already...on the morning of January 5 2008 at 1am...I had that dream. That dream that inspired me to write that poem from my music myspace (the one in the first blog i posted). It was one of the best dreams i had had in a looooooooong time. My previous ones the nights before have all been nightmares...but thats for a different blog.
by the way come check out my music at my
youtube and my music myspace
and every now and then i'll broadcast live on blogtv
So yeah! Because of that dream...I guess I have a crush on that girl that I was talking about before...and I've never felt more dooooomed in my entire life.
From a dream...
[i'm just taking this from my myspace]
I wrote this in a dream! Not with words but with images. Haha..and I fell asleep trying to make up a song in my head...
The words of my songs are embodied by her
The dreams that inspire them smile through her
The heart that dreams this is in love with her
But the love that it feels is not answered
A pursuit that kind of seems meaningless
A muse who doesn't see her result
A feeling that can lead to ruin
But a reason and hope to sing for
A face to create a smile
A feeling to act on
A dream to sing about
A love to fight for
Her body to keep warm
Her lips to kiss forever
Her eyes to escape into
Her heart to care for
If only she would
At least by accident
Turn her gaze
In my direction
To feel her stare
Or any other connection
Is to step into heaven
For just a little moment
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