music

a year ago, i could not go one day without playing my guitar. but now-a-days i've realized that sometimes i don't even notice it. most days it just goes untouched, leaning on a wall or my upstairs couch. ever since parents decided to move my desk and computer to the other room, i haven't been able to record music or make any videos for youtube.

because i haven't been able to record, i can't even remember whens the last time i've written an original song. i used to write a lot. even if i just think up some cool melodies, i would quickly figure out the chords for them and record about a 30 second sample of it with me humming so that i could continue from it later with lyrics and such. i used to get excited about songs. about performing. about uploading stuff to my myspace or youtube.

now i don't even write music. i rarely sit down to play my guitar or learn a song. i yearn to perform but lack the enthusiasm to follow through it. i miss the times when people would ask me to perform at their concerts or venues. or when a random person would send me a message or comment telling me how impressed they are by my talent.

i know it's kind of cheap to say that i don't do all of this because i've lost my equipment, but it was my equipment that enabled me to record and upload. it was my equipment that enabled others to listen to my songs, to advertise myself as a performer.

slowly i'm losing my love, enthusiasm, and talent for music...